Sigh.
Eveyone else seem to be leading more fulfilling lives than I am.
Both Eudora and Priyangi are half-way across the globe, living interesting lives. Priyangi has the time to make cheese straws and caramelised onion dip, which sounds really yummy by the way. I am still surprised that Priyangi, someone who looks like studying is about the only things she knows how to do, likes to bake things when she is free, and she's not half bad! Eudora, on the other hand, has so many things on hand and she is fully engaged in school.
Mariem, the Princess, may be leaving for Australia, if she is accepted into the University. Grace is becoming a doctor.
I seem to be the only one leading a tasteless and boring life. I am working in a clinic in Suntec. It provides me with the money to pay my bills and have a roof over my head, but I'm not exactly jumping with joy every morning. When I first wiewed this room, I was overjoyed that cooking is allowed and they have a really big oven. It turned out the oven is spoilt. Everything in the kitchen looks super old and greasy, so much so that I don't really dare to use anything from the kitchen, so it's as good as no cooking allowed. Back to square one. I WANT MY OWN HOUSE!
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
I've Moved!
After much anticipation (on my part), searching and sweating (from carrying all the heavy boxes), I have finally moved house.
Like everything else in my life, this room is far from perfect. It's a really old house, there are a lot of stubborn stains. The wardobe is moldy and the stove is so ancient I never thought I would see something like that out of a museum.
The reasons that made me rent this room despite the many drawbacks are as follwed:
Like everything else in my life, this room is far from perfect. It's a really old house, there are a lot of stubborn stains. The wardobe is moldy and the stove is so ancient I never thought I would see something like that out of a museum.
The reasons that made me rent this room despite the many drawbacks are as follwed:
Private bath: Although it is not a must for me to have my own bathroom, I have to admit that it is really very convenient. I don't have to dash back to my room when I forgot to bring the towel, and I don't have to clear the bathroom of all my things after using it.
Coking allowed: The super ancient stove actually works! Although I have yet to master the technique of using the stove without burning the house down, but it's nice to know that I can cook should I choose to.
Near to LG: Actually this is one of the most important reasons why I moved house in the first place. My boyfriend is a lazy pig, and he conveniently uses me staying very far away as an excuse not meet up with me often. Let's see what excuse he can come up, now that I am living just 15 minutes away from him.
I am so glad to have finally moved house. Let's hope that I can stay here for a long time. I didn't know moving house is so tiring!
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Happiness
Many of us, including me, are constantly searching for "happiness". We think that we need expensive cars and branded goods to be "happy", but when we actually achieve those things do we realise that they don't make us as "happy" as we they would. What exactly is "happiness" and how do we go about being "happy"? Deluded, I went online and visited websites dedicated to "happiness", but I am not really inspired by the things they said. Then I came across this poster online.
I think we have all been chasing "happiness", we are so focused on it that we fail to realise how "happy" we really are. "Happiness" is not something you can see and recognise right away. It is the joy and peace you feel when you do certain things, the insignificant little things.
I feel happy when I am spending quality time with my boyfriend. I feel happy when I am enjoying nice food. I feel happy when I am writing in my diary. I feel happy when I laugh. I feel happy when I am able to buy something I like. I feel happy when someone compliments me. I feel happy when I bake cakes and cookies and people enjoy what I bake. I feel happy when I wake up after a good night's sleep. I feel happy when I am reading novels. I feel happy when I spend time with my friends.
However, I do know that I can be happier. I need to find a good place that is within my budget, somewhere I won't want to move out in a long time. I believe that it's only when I am settled down can I put my full attention on the other things that I need to take care of.
Monday, October 5, 2009
His - Scorpio
A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive, is easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. He has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man. He absorbs other people's sentimental feeling and pain.
He is a good psychiatrist and he can understand complex and confused feelings. He has a hidden power that he could use to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goals in life. Once he sets his mind on something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it, whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most successful man in all the Zodiac.
He is a very patient man and can wait for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He cannot retreat or rest for long, for he thinks that life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes maybe much more than what you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love no matter how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight-forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over-sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even though you might not be able to take it.
If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and believe in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.
He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
He remember everything well. You may say something that you have already forgotten, but he will remember every word. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time, he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about everything in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.
He is a good psychiatrist and he can understand complex and confused feelings. He has a hidden power that he could use to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goals in life. Once he sets his mind on something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it, whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most successful man in all the Zodiac.
He is a very patient man and can wait for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He cannot retreat or rest for long, for he thinks that life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes maybe much more than what you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love no matter how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight-forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over-sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even though you might not be able to take it.
If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and believe in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.
He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
He remember everything well. You may say something that you have already forgotten, but he will remember every word. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time, he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about everything in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.
Mine - Pisces
She likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality. She is weak and sensitive when it's come to "Love". She can cry if her best friend is breaking up, and she can be over-excited when her friend gets a new boy friend who is a good-looking and rich even though it does not concerned her at all. You might be surprised to see that she is shy just because she is in love. She loves small animal and is gifted in training them.
She has sixth-sense, she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature. Even though she has sixth-sense, she cannot pick or foresee her own choice of lover. She cannot tell if she has met a sincere guy or a one-night-stand guy.
She likes to buy and pick her own clothes. She likes to dress cute and be cute. Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has nice skin. Her hands and feet are small and soft. Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them. She is a hot lady and everyone wants her. Whether she has a man in her life or not , she will never try to overpower any man. It's not even in her thoughts.
She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way. She is an easy going person, so being with her is easy. She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy. She knows how to please and how to comfort a man. If something is wrong, she will try to make other people believe that it is because of someone else, not because of her loved one. She will not push her man to be ambitious but to make him feel he should be happy with the way he is now. She is happy with you for what you are now.
A Pisces woman, if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and it will make her a very unhappy person. She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself. She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and she is so vulnerable to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills). She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take. If you love her, then hold her tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do next.
A complex character. You may think she is the shy innocent type and cannot hurt anyone, then you are wrong. You might think she is a fragile person who needs protection, wrong again. She has been through a lot, a tough cookie.
She is a dreamer and love the word "Love", so she is the type who will buy gifts for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or anniversary, even for someone she does not know well.
Be very careful if you fall in love with a Pisces woman. She can be a totally different person before and after. She can be an angel before and later a witch, but everyone is not perfect, right? She will be soft and gentle most of the time, so not to worry. She is emotional and extremely sensitive when she frequently got hurt. She is the type who can cry her heart out.
She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone. She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she hides that feeling by being stubborn. She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy. She does not like to follow any fixed rules. She can be a good housewife if you know how to handle her.
Many men will ask to marry her because she is 100% woman. If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angel.
She has sixth-sense, she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature. Even though she has sixth-sense, she cannot pick or foresee her own choice of lover. She cannot tell if she has met a sincere guy or a one-night-stand guy.
She likes to buy and pick her own clothes. She likes to dress cute and be cute. Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has nice skin. Her hands and feet are small and soft. Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them. She is a hot lady and everyone wants her. Whether she has a man in her life or not , she will never try to overpower any man. It's not even in her thoughts.
She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way. She is an easy going person, so being with her is easy. She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy. She knows how to please and how to comfort a man. If something is wrong, she will try to make other people believe that it is because of someone else, not because of her loved one. She will not push her man to be ambitious but to make him feel he should be happy with the way he is now. She is happy with you for what you are now.
A Pisces woman, if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and it will make her a very unhappy person. She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself. She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and she is so vulnerable to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills). She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take. If you love her, then hold her tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do next.
A complex character. You may think she is the shy innocent type and cannot hurt anyone, then you are wrong. You might think she is a fragile person who needs protection, wrong again. She has been through a lot, a tough cookie.
She is a dreamer and love the word "Love", so she is the type who will buy gifts for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or anniversary, even for someone she does not know well.
Be very careful if you fall in love with a Pisces woman. She can be a totally different person before and after. She can be an angel before and later a witch, but everyone is not perfect, right? She will be soft and gentle most of the time, so not to worry. She is emotional and extremely sensitive when she frequently got hurt. She is the type who can cry her heart out.
She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone. She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she hides that feeling by being stubborn. She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy. She does not like to follow any fixed rules. She can be a good housewife if you know how to handle her.
Many men will ask to marry her because she is 100% woman. If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angel.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Sweet Dream
I had a REALLY interesting dream last night.
I dreamt that I had buffet dinner with my primary school classmates at a basement restaurant. Now, any normal being would remember what main food they had, but not me. I can't remember anything about the food, all I can remember are the desserts. The gorgeous cakes, the puddings that are smooth as silk, the cream puffs...
I woke up with a huge craving for desserts. I want to go to Marche for desserts!
I dreamt that I had buffet dinner with my primary school classmates at a basement restaurant. Now, any normal being would remember what main food they had, but not me. I can't remember anything about the food, all I can remember are the desserts. The gorgeous cakes, the puddings that are smooth as silk, the cream puffs...
I woke up with a huge craving for desserts. I want to go to Marche for desserts!
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Reflections
Actually, loving someone is really a very simple thing, so simple that sometimes we don't see it. Loving someone doesn't mean that you have to shower the person with expensive gifts on Valentine's Day, Christmas, and on her birthday. Loving someone doesn't mean that you have to know where they are 24/7. Loving someone doesn't mean that you have to give up your dreams for them. The only thing you have to do when you love someone ... is to love them. Love him/her with all yourt heart, with everything you have. Actually, loving someone is THAT simple.
Life is too short for us to waste it on regrets. I don't want to wait until I am old and wish I had done this and that. Besides, I may not live until that old. I may get knocked down by a reckless driver when I am crossing the road tomorrow. Who knows. So my motto is "Live life to the fullest. Try everything."
I have the uncanny abililty to make some really stupid mistakes. I have and I probably still will in the future. But I refuse to dwell on my past mistakes and let them hinder me. I think that everything is an experience, be it good or bad. I am just going to take everything in my stride.
Life is too short for us to waste it on regrets. I don't want to wait until I am old and wish I had done this and that. Besides, I may not live until that old. I may get knocked down by a reckless driver when I am crossing the road tomorrow. Who knows. So my motto is "Live life to the fullest. Try everything."
I have the uncanny abililty to make some really stupid mistakes. I have and I probably still will in the future. But I refuse to dwell on my past mistakes and let them hinder me. I think that everything is an experience, be it good or bad. I am just going to take everything in my stride.
Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
My heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehowI will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
There's a heart that must
Be free to fly
That burns with a need
To know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside
When will my reflections how
Who I am inside
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
My heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehowI will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
There's a heart that must
Be free to fly
That burns with a need
To know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside
When will my reflections how
Who I am inside
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