I suck as a nurse, and that's a fact. Since I've had three months of PRCP at TTSH, I expect myself to find my footing faster than others and do much better than the others, given the fact that I have been exposed to all these before.
But it seems that is not the case. I seem to be such an idiot and others are suffering as a result of my incompetence. There's always so many changes that I would miss out, so many things I did not follow-up on, so many things that I forgot to include in my report. There's so many things that I don't know how to do, I still don't know much about my patients.
But there's one area which I am very happy about: medications. I no longer feel scared of serving medications, which is probably one of the reasons I don't make that many medications errors anymore. Not making medication errors has given me confidence when serving medications, so I don't make that many mistakes. It's a positive cycle. I like that.
Well, about my incompetency, I guess I will just have to work harder. Since I don't have good memory, I should write down all the things that I have to do and follow-up on.
I have realised, quite long ago, that I am not someone who works well when under a lot of pressure. Give me too much pressure and I will go all haywire. So I should calm myself down and do my things peacefully.
Hopefully, I don't disappoint anyone again (including myself).
But it seems that is not the case. I seem to be such an idiot and others are suffering as a result of my incompetence. There's always so many changes that I would miss out, so many things I did not follow-up on, so many things that I forgot to include in my report. There's so many things that I don't know how to do, I still don't know much about my patients.
But there's one area which I am very happy about: medications. I no longer feel scared of serving medications, which is probably one of the reasons I don't make that many medications errors anymore. Not making medication errors has given me confidence when serving medications, so I don't make that many mistakes. It's a positive cycle. I like that.
Well, about my incompetency, I guess I will just have to work harder. Since I don't have good memory, I should write down all the things that I have to do and follow-up on.
I have realised, quite long ago, that I am not someone who works well when under a lot of pressure. Give me too much pressure and I will go all haywire. So I should calm myself down and do my things peacefully.
Hopefully, I don't disappoint anyone again (including myself).
1 comment:
Jie ah...nursing is a difficult job. It's not like this is a simple matter of 'babysitting'. You are just as important and busy as the doctors! You will be able to get it, I have confidence and faith in you.
You're right, giving yourself too much pressure never helps anyone. And you are not making that many meds errors, right? Xiao jie, it's not like you are super experienced at being a nurse. You are new to this. I wouldn't expect myself to be handling a classroomful of screaming kids perfectly after 3 months, either.
Don't worry too much, and be happy (: there are people who love you and will support you, any time you need to destress we are here.
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